littleredridinghood4

i just haven't been a very active member of the deviant art world recently but i just like to say i should be much more vocal now

Hey there I'm open to suggestions for drawings, no promises ill actually draw them  but I probably will

I know I haven't met the guy I'm going to marry yet,  and here why. The guy I meant to be with is the one who will see me when I'm falling apart and take me into his arms. He'll tell me everything's going to be okay, and the thing is I'll believe him.

I just got in a big fight with my mom. I mean huge. It all started when I told her i didn't want to go to homecoming, I was just going to hang out with friends instead.  Well she was not happy about that. At first I was just defending my choice but it all changed when my mom ask the question "is it our fault?" She was referring to my dad and herself, asking if they were to blame for my quote un quote "withdrawing in on myself", even going as far as calling me a "hermit". Well then I just snapped. See the reason I can't see my friends is because they live so far away, because my mom sent me to a school that was far away and won't give me my license. I'll admit that in the past I've had trouble with making friends, especially when I went to a new school, but this year I've been doing so much better. I am honestly so much happier. The thing that bothered me the most is that my mom didn't ask me if I was okay, she asked me "is it our fault?" She wasn't concerned with my general well being  but worried if she was to blame for my lack of popularity. The phrase is it our fault is bouncing around my head now. Is it our fault? Is it our fault? Is it our fault? To answer that question i told her yes.

For the past two years I've liked this guy and not liked this guy and liked this guy and so on and so on. I kept changing my mind and now he has a girlfriend and their so happy together, and that makes me so sad, because I know we could've been that happy together but I never really gave us a chance and every time I see them together I I just regret it. I want him to be happy so it's not like I want them to break up, and they haven't been dating for that long, but I want it to work out, if that's what makes him happy. I just, I just wish that I made him happy, you know?  The thing is I know I could've made him happy, it's just too late it's sucks but watchable gonna do